untangling the web

Wind whistling, sun slipping away
Love lasting or last loving?
Darkness duelling with the light and heat of the day.
I am alone
Surrounded by my own fears, imaginations, feelings.
Glimmer of light appear over the horizon
Only to fade slowly and sadly die.
I am forsaken – why?
Why – when I reach out to touch you – you are gone
– When I try to speak to you – you ignore me,
Or chatter on in babbling confused words.
Four walls fall in on me, buildings collapse.
What am I without you?
Life torture my existence, question what I am,
Surround me with gravestones, and leave me to die.
Darkness entomb me, crosses stand high,
Crowd mock on, but leave me to die.
Once I saw joy –
It was written all over the smiling face of a man I loved.
Once I knew love, but no more. Gone.
I am left alone to fight my own way out.
Lord, it is dark here,
And the light is a long distance away;
I know you haven’t left me;
‘Your absence’ is a realisation of too much of my own presence.
I ask that in my emptiness
I may present myself, empty to you
And believe again.